28/2/07

lol.. today was stupid, rained so heavily.. anyway, today is Kenneth's birthday (my fren de fren or brother) *dun care* happie birthday anyway..! as if he would be reading my blog..-.- haix.. during sch hours was so dumb.. everything is stupid to mi! ahh!! i'm going CRAZY! i'm jealous of alot of things.. dan juz when i wanted to calm down, tears would be rolling down my eyes.. i'm so emo! i dunno why i am always staring into space and thinking of nothing.. i couldn't understand myself... why do i look that way? in school and everywhere.. the way i look at things were "so-called mature" the way ppl look at mi were not the way i were when i was in P6.. everyone was frenly and always joking around.. but in sec 1 now.. i can't really smile at ppl.. true frens are like everywhere but u juz dunno that they are there to help u.. my class is like a group of Saints with a bunch of D3vils! (not mi) everything was funnie to them.. laugh all they wanted and never thought of how ppl will feel, never imagined that if u were in his shoes.. how would u feel and what will u do in that case.. being racist, bullies around the school.. everything is counted and i think those are juz dumb! why can't they juz calm down themselves and pay attention to the teacher so that we can f**king pass our CA1,exams or wadever! during english.. i stared into space because the whole class was in a mess.. WTH is this sia! dragging the chairs making a screeching noise hurting ppl's ear.. including mine! HECK sia.. if i couldn't control my temper well.. i would be scolding all the vulgars at him.. throwing chairs directly at his face, i dun even care if i would get canning or get expelled.. the D3vil inside of mi juz couldn't get out of mi.. or the class would be chaotic.. ppl joked and laughed at mi during classes, i would juz stare at them with a face that was quite "scary".. i used it during the rugby training and that person said.. eh why u look at mi liddat? dam scary sia.. dan i smiled at him..LOL

during rugby training.. we trained on rugs and mauls, maybe u dunno wad those are but no nid to know also, after 20mins we trained on lifting.. now arm dam pain haha.. and due to the wet weather.. all the forwards got their attire from white to brown.. lol after all the trainings had finished, we went to wash up and wore back the school uniforms.. (for mi onli la, others wore their own choice of clothes) i dun care oso.. dan we gathered, the rugby coach talked to us for awhile and chose 18 boys to participate for the "National Women's 7" lol.. i was not chosen for that.. but den my fren kena LOL i even congratulated him.. i very good rite? =.= dan i went home with my fren and shared umbrella with him while we were on our way to the bus stop.. after reaching the interchange, he asked mi if i wanted to buy curry puff.. dan i say ok lo.. $1 for 1.. normal la.. dan i bought the lime juice oso, sweet but very sour.. LOL dan after reaching home i ate my dinner, had a bath.. and watched tv.. haha.. ok la.. that's all i wanted to say.. Oyasumi Nasai!!